My ears are filled with the sounds of Widespread Panic. I'm listening to the concert I went to a little over a week ago in Jackson. Last night I saw they finally posted the concert for download on widespreadpanic.com and for $10.95, I can finally take a listen to a musical snapshot of a great night of music I had. I've bought live recordings from Rush tours I've seen, where the setlist hasn't changed from venue to venue, but this is the first time I've been able to listen to the actual show as I heard it. Pretty cool. Deffinitely a better value at $10.95 than going out and spending $16 on one of their studio albums.

Today, I unexpectedly had contact with someone whose attention I'd love to get a little more of. I tired my best to be charming, which usually results in damn goofiness more than charm, but I guess it's better for a woman to see the genuine craziness of my personality than the reserved, "What do I do next?" persona that I usually have. Actually, I guess if I had one lesson from tonight, is that I should act that way more often, since silliness is a good thing and more often than not, I will tend to walk out of work bitter and focused rather than shrugging and forward thinking. Silliness is a virtue, and I have to remember that now that I am no longer in an official management position, I can temper some of my leadership with goofiness. And as my best friend tells me, being yourself is still the best way to find acceptance with people. So here's to slowly trying to break out of my shell of focused, intense, self discrimination and moving more towards perceived weirdness.